A New Beginning

Hi there.

I just feel soo suck-ish right now.

If only life could pass as swiftly as the wind.

I'm so sentimental and yet, the memories I had with all my friends, seemed so meaningless.

I could always talk to you guys back in the day, but you guys never did so with me.

I've always kept my past close with me but would it even matter know?

I am alone, but not literally. I still have my family, parents, brothers. But you can say we're all almost apart.

As long I still breathe, I will suffer.

Eid-ul Fitri 1430 H

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri
to all muslims, Malaysians and everybody else!

I'm at the Royal Town of Sri Menanti, home to my mother and her mother before her. So anyway, Rewind!

Woke up early on raya morning, had nasi lemak for breakdast cause it was a Sunday then got my haircut after by mak. Solat sunat raya aidilfitri at the mosque as always but I met a few friends there.

Got back and I quickly readied mak's laptop, tripod and camera for our family photo.
I don't think I did a pretty good job with this. Ngeh.

After that we went to Grandparents at TTDI. The usual lah. Since Abang is back, he, kakak and Salma can come beraye at Taman Tun. But they came a bit late cause of delays when they were stilll in Shah Alam. All of us 2ent back by 6pm I think.

I heard Abang was going alone back to kampung, so I wanted to follow. Mak and ayah left at 9. Abang came at 10 I think. But we gerak-ed at 11 or 1130, cause we were busy plating GH3. =P Hard is HARD! Haha.

Got there, and everyone who saw Abang asked where's Salma. Kakak didn't want to go cause well... I guess she's tired. This year Abang started to get info on our family members from Kakak's side and from ours. And we knew that our side is the hardest cause of Pak Ngah Besar's family. So I'll blog more on that later. Right now my cousin wants to use my mom's laptop for a while.

Incase I fall I sleep, Nights!

So Very True

A painful feeling it is to go through. It's been frequently happening to me lately. Sigh.

English papers tomorrow. Sleeping on the floor again today. Nights.

Picture courtesy of:
Shannon's Tumblr.

If Only

If only I was given
...........a chance to love
If only I was given
...........a person of a captivating heart
If only I wasn't given
...........such a foolish mind
If only the inevitable
...........could be changed

Too long have I dwindled in the dark corners of my mind
Too long have I given so much hope on the bleak
Too long have I given a chase to those around me
Too long have I done so much yet so little

If only they would stay by my side
...........rather than leaving me alone in the dark
If only she could listen to the words of my heart
...........may there be no reason to abandon any hope

If only time could heal a wounded heart.

First thing.
Happy Belated to
Perol, Hazirah, Emilyn and Bonda!

Yesterday we had gotong-royong at school. I think it was meriah? Yeah. I thing its the best out of all the gotong-royong the school ever had. I had fun breaking the cupboards that the school wanted to throw out. It feels like killing a person. And its strangely fun. Ehehehe.

Half way back home, got a ride from Pn.Shuba. Yay! Twice in a week! Littered at home till 2 then head out to KLPF. When I got there I called Nat, then she said she was going back already. Was so sad then. I was really looking forward going with Nat and Shannon to KLPF yesterday but then we had school. Then I missed hanging out with them when I got there. What a bummerr.

I was pretty tired over there. My back hurts. Met Cik Kuah there. Then called up Jas and Aqif and found out they were at a movie. My fault. I'm going there again today. Going with Han and gonna go buy stuff. So if you're going there now, see ya there!

Bye!

Of BelaTeds and Sucking of Life

Happy Belated Birthdays to
Kak Fatin, Pavin, Faris, Najmi
and
Happy Birthday Asyraf!

Had 2 seminars today. We were suppose to have 3 which was Add Maths but the speaker had fever so he/she could not be present. If we did have that seminar we're suppose to go back at 3:45. Super long man. So before recess we had Chem and after we had English. They were all about answering techniques and let me tell you that chem was the absolute boardem. Chem may look easy to learn, but the questions are damn hard. Well, at least to me. I could understand one single bit. I was sitting in the first row for the first couple of minutes then I went to the back cause I couldn't understanding anything.

English was fun though. It was presented by a former english teacher of SMKBB, Pn. Shirlee (Spelling unknown). Now teaching at SMK Dato' Lokman, Kg Pandan. The essays she showed and mind blowing! This guy got 50/50 for his essays! Man, power of bombastic words. You gotta respect them. She told us not to use slang in our essays like "Life Sucks". Cause if the examiner are from those luar bandar places, they won't know all these American Slang kids now days use. So if they use direct translating, it'll be like, "Kehidupan Menyedut". HAHAHA. I was like mad when she said that. The rest of the seminar was nice.

Finished around 1:30. Helped clean the Mini Dewan. Brought the PA down to the prefect store with Suresh then went for sivics at the library (Ain't that cool?). Thought Marsya would be there but to dismay she was not is sight. Ustaz Azham said he'll finish class at 1:10 so I can go see him to get some exercises for Tasawwur. When I went to see him, he wasn't there. And his timetable said he has class till 2:30. Then I went back to the library tired.

When school finished, I found out that my shoes were missing. Surprisingly I had no expression of my face. Took off my socks and went to the surau. After my prayers, I went looking for it. Then I gave up. So I went to find Ustaz Azham. Who I found at the Bilik Ekses (The school's CC). Told him about my dilemma and asked for a ride back which he kindly obliged. Walk around the school with no hope of finding it, bare footed. I guess that's all.

3 More Days!

Oh Dang It!

Happy 17th Birthday

to

Mark and Harsh!

Now is time for me to sleep. Alright? 1-2-3-Spontan! Nights.